Even the strongest of us, those who appear the most infallible, weep. They weep when no one else is watching. They ask themselves “why me?” Sometimes they fall to their knees and beg for clear answers, precious guidance. Sometimes they throw their rage to the heavens, wishing they were someone else, wishing that they didn’t have to endure such pain, at times wishing that they never existed.
When God, or whatever you believe in, gives you a certain, unfavourable situation, all you can do is make the best of it. Learn to trust the process. Learn to not fight so hard, so much, so often. Learn to accept, rather than react. Trust that everything happens for a reason. It will take time.
It’s okay to be angry at the world, at life.
It’s okay to feel the fury setting fire to your blood – it’s just another reminder that you are alive, you are feeling things that everybody else has and is feeling.
It’s okay to let your eyes burn and sting with hot, angry tears.
It’s okay to descend into madness, to scream behind closed doors or into the night on a hilltop with the world beneath your feet.
Do whatever it takes to make yourself feel better. Love yourself. Let yourself heal from all this trauma.
And bear your scars proudly – let these marks remind you of how much you’ve endured, of the significance of your strength in trying times, of how much you’ve grown through these hardships. You need to experience the good, the bad, and all the nastiness of this world to grow and mature into a better person and fulfill your true potential. To find your calling and what you were put on this earth for.
And once you’ve found your true purpose in this life, you’ll look back on these times, bittersweet, and you’ll smile with pride at how far you’ve come. It doesn’t matter what others think, because only you know what you’ve been through, only you know how much fighting had to be done; you are the only soldier that can turn the tide of this war of life. Your life. And a soldier fights to the very end.
Hardships often prepare ordinary people for an extraordinary destiny.C.S. Lewis